im going to try my best to get my surrounding thoughts, ideas, and memories of the past day into words. How do people do such things so efficiently? I dont remember if i was once able to… i think so.

Well i just wanted to talk a little bit about a rabbit hole I have been going down recently. This rabbit hole i would stay stems from Bobs News and Books in Florida. That will be one of the first places i go when i get back to florida. It is an old school bookstore and newstand. I imagine once, that many similar stores used to be. Specific stores like this, where seedy and fringe characters would hang out and converse. Where regulars would go for their news each day and to get cheap cigars and lottery. I dont know… Anyway, that does interest me but that is not neccesarily what led me down the rabbit hole. What led me down the rabbit hole is the specific books i bought there. Old military manuals and survival books i bought there, originating from loompanics, delta press, paladin press, desert publications, those such. And since yesterday, i have been on a deep dive of these publications. It is amazing the world that once was. The america that once was. I hope i can find it again but i am not sure where to look. Where ones desires are so pure. Not pure as in holy, but without distraction. Pure as in dedicated. I wonder the bookshops that used to exist and the type of people that used to buy from such publications. Perhaps there is a cabin in the woods where there are four men sitting around a table smoking cigarettes and playing cards, guns on the wall. Perhaps they are planning dark deeds. Or perhaps they are just hitting the bottle and cursing the government. I am not sure. Who knows what lies out west. What lies in the country. I will try to see. I need to save much money so i can spend an indefenite amount of time on the road in search. In pure search with no distraction. No cellular. Perhaps a flip. Extensive research and planning before. Staying in motels writing and singing the blues.