Maybe i should get a job doing some sort of writing… Maybe these are the types of things i should be writing in a journal and not on a blog, but i dont know. Here i am saying that i would like to get a job writing, while showcasing my writing… anyway… I dont know, i dont enjoy it that much.. but i do a little.. Its just that, how else can i find a way to keep employment while living ina motel in the nevada deserts, or in some apartment at the edge of staten island. Im not sure. I was looking at a masters program at a university in newfoundland. It is for folklore… that sounds interesting… And Newfoundland my god does that place sound interesting. But i dont know. I like to photograph and write.. kind of. but maybe not. But i also want to do real work. Like work on a railroad or as a plumber, an electritian even. I want to have a trade.. i suppose writing is a trade, but im not at the level of a trade… I like to fish. Im not sure what i will do. Maybe i will just work short stints anywhere i go of any job i can get. Or maybe my home base will be south florida but i will save up money from there and go live in places for stints… Oh yea, i also do love to make music.. But love actualy, im not sure if that truly applies to any of this.. im not sure what i will do. I need to get into a pure routine. One where i dont waste my time here on the internet. Im not sure if i need to stay off it all together, but there certainly needs to be a limit. I want to live in a house, an apartment. I want to write each day, make music each day, read each day, eatch movies, draw, listen to recorsds, but pure. I think i shouldnt spend my time wastefully consuming. Now, theres nothing wrong with consuming. But you should think about what and how you are consuming, thats all. I love to fish. I truly love south florida. Maybe a place for me is to live at the edge of the everglades/big cypress, but not quite out of civilization… i dont know. We shall see.